Today I received an email that our retreat for this weekend, the retreat entitled “Big Love,” has been cancelled. We didn’t have a single person signed up. I’m definitely disappointed. And I would not be as worried if it weren’t for the fact that it is the second retreat in a row that has been cancelled.
I’m certain that the current economic state has something to do with young adults not signing up for a retreat. To spend $55 for a single day, or around $200 for a weekend is a big chunk of change. I get it. I honestly do.
But I can’t pretend that I’m not saddened by this. Or that I’m not sad that my dear friend Father Rusy was reassigned to a parish near LA. I had so many good times with him, led so many great retreats with him.
It is always hard when things don’t go the way I’d like, when something I really do LOVE doing is interrupted. I feel a bit like a little bird being pushed out of it’s nest. Perhaps God is telling me to fly, to do my thing, to trust that I can make it happen. To know that I have a “home” at San Damiano, that I have a place to come back to, but that it is time to move on.
I have to have faith in the fact that this is not a bad thing, but an opportunity. Now I just need to figure out what the silver lining is and get a move on making whatever that is happen 🙂
I said I wanted to lead retreats elsewhere …. perhaps this is the push I needed?