We’ve had a very busy couple of weeks. Here, on New Year’s Day, I sit with the Christmas tree lit, candles going, a mug of tea by my side. Sean and I have agreed to leave the tree up, and the decorations up until next weekend. On purpose, because he says he likes how it looks. I am happy to keep the magic going. (that’s not to say I won’t get antsy and start to put other pieces away…)
This last week has been pretty amazing. I have lots to share. Most important, over the last week, I’ve resolved that Happiness and Following One’s Heart are what will be the focus of 2010.
In this last year, I have found myself at a couple of jobs that have been less than ideal. By mid-December, it was obvious to me that the most recent post was wearing me so thin that I no longer felt I had a personal life at all. I’d work twelve hours in the office, come home for a bit of dinner, sleep for an hour on the couch and then work a couple more hours online before falling into bed. I had given the job all I could.
Even with the long hours, the leadership and some of the people I interacted with were difficult. I was getting yelled by the leads of other departments at because I was doing things differently from how this company had done things in the past. I was being asked to make changes by the president, but the other employees wanted nothing to do with it. I felt stuck in the middle, but without any support to do what I was being asked to do.
I prayed about what to do.
A friend named Darren contacted me and asked if I knew of any good Project Managers that might consider a new job. He and a long time colleague had started a new company a couple of years ago out of state and were looking for people in the SF area. At first I said that I was bummed that I’d made a leap only a couple of months earlier. And I kept on with my routine.
And then I thought about it. This was a person I had thoroughly enjoyed working with before. He’s smart, respectful, and very good at what he does. I would be a fool to turn away from this kind of opportunity, especially when I’d put it out into the universe that I was hoping for something better.
After a lot of thought, some agonizing, and a whole lot of chatter with Sean, I made my decision. I’m changing jobs. Three months to the day after I started the new job, I am leaving for another. This is not like me. I am tried and true and stay loyal for a long time.
On the other hand, this job has a ton of opportunity for me. It will be in Oakland, which is closer to my retreat work and team, and closer to the Graduate Theological Union (maybe I can take more classes? I’d said I really wanted to consider more classes and now, look, I’m going to be physically closer to the school!). I will be working with a team that wants a work / life balance, who wants to do good work for clients. Who understands that advertising is not rocket science, and who understands that we can find joy in every moment.